Oh joy! To wear spurs again after so many years.[yes, I had the buckles wrong..sigh] lol. I was ready, for Hawk to be more upward than forward. I was surprised to say the least that he did not buck. He did sound surprised the first time I touched him. Kind of like... "Crap! I need to get myself together!" He became very strong, almost felt like we were going to run the derby. [hold with my back, sit over my hips, keep my legs quiet, give with the reins...] all these commands rushing through my head. I'm thinking "Crap! I need to get myself together!"
We finished the movement, it kinda came together by default. Later I heard that we looked really good. I was surprised. Then my trainer let me know that some of the best rides are near the exploding point. Which, make me think we did look good. Because I surely thought we were going to crash and burn.
So today is another lesson, and yes I will be putting on the spurs again. Today I am looking forward to working together better. Having him forward and on the bit, without the fear that I am doing everything wrong. So when I feel his strength, I know it is what I should be feeling.
Friday, June 10, 2011
Monday, April 25, 2011
Compassion -
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I would like to say that it goes against my nature to be compassionate. But I would be lying. It is easy to be compassionate concerning your children, wanting to make sure everything works out in their favor, that life and love don't leave scars.
Being compassionate for someone elses pain, grief, saddness means you take yourself out of the picture. In no way do you become the focus, ever. To realise that during such levels of grief, they are dealing with emotional, physical and psychological overload.
I would like to say that it goes against my nature to be compassionate. But I would be lying. It is easy to be compassionate concerning your children, wanting to make sure everything works out in their favor, that life and love don't leave scars.
Being compassionate for someone elses pain, grief, saddness means you take yourself out of the picture. In no way do you become the focus, ever. To realise that during such levels of grief, they are dealing with emotional, physical and psychological overload.
The sad news is...
Life is hard. Around every corner, there is another hurdle. What we make of the sitsuation is what defines us.
Do we live in the past, beating ourselves, and or others for our choices, failures or successes?
Why not just leave the past there. Accept it. It happened, and go on. I've had this conversation more more than a few people. Have read similar thoughts and ideas from friends who are struggling with issues.
I have to say that looking back at all my history there are very few things I would change. Most of my decisions I would let stand. The ones that I had hurt someone, physically, mentally or emotionally I would change. But being that we cannot change history, I have adopted the mind set of not repeating those actions. Am I perfect. not at all. But, I am better than I was.
High School has been in the fore front of my mind here lately. Unfortunately a High School friend is dealing with a very devistating and tragic event. The social networks have brought us all back into eachothers lives after so many years. Where typically before we would get this news at the next class reunion. To know immediately that grief and shock so heavy being bourne by a person known in younger days. I must applaud those classmates who were able to be there in person.
Do we live in the past, beating ourselves, and or others for our choices, failures or successes?
Why not just leave the past there. Accept it. It happened, and go on. I've had this conversation more more than a few people. Have read similar thoughts and ideas from friends who are struggling with issues.
I have to say that looking back at all my history there are very few things I would change. Most of my decisions I would let stand. The ones that I had hurt someone, physically, mentally or emotionally I would change. But being that we cannot change history, I have adopted the mind set of not repeating those actions. Am I perfect. not at all. But, I am better than I was.
High School has been in the fore front of my mind here lately. Unfortunately a High School friend is dealing with a very devistating and tragic event. The social networks have brought us all back into eachothers lives after so many years. Where typically before we would get this news at the next class reunion. To know immediately that grief and shock so heavy being bourne by a person known in younger days. I must applaud those classmates who were able to be there in person.
Saturday, April 2, 2011
Staying at a five.
I have delved back into the mystical world of Dressage. What was I thinking when I faded out the last time. So basically, and forgive the pun... back in the saddle again... I am realizing (HA more like been told by many people} That I need to "slow my roll" Soften the mind, try not to think to much about it, let it happen, don't force the issue.
And then an epiphany, I live at a 9 (1 -10 scale of energy output.) I have been recently instructed that to learn, I need to become a 5. That in its self is difficult, but with so many people wanting me to succeed, plus my own determination to do this. I am tackling the most difficult part of my own being. Slowing down. And when I feel myself getting up in the numbers, my safe word, "5" It brings me back to where I need and want to be. I have seen a great improvement with Hawk, he likes it better, who wouldn't?
So... The first schooling show for the TVDCTA [Tennessee Valley Dressage Combined Training Assoc.][[and my first in....13 years]] is this next Saturday, with a clinic following on Sunday. Yep, in for a penny, in for a pound, decided to ride the clinic as well. Which in a way will be beneficial. Our judge will break the scores down as why they are marked that way and hopefully how to improve the rides. I remember from my very first dressage ride many years ago, "needs to utilize the aids to become a more effective rider" I totally understand that now. So, lets hear it for amazing weather, a cool breeze and well behaved horses and riders!
And then an epiphany, I live at a 9 (1 -10 scale of energy output.) I have been recently instructed that to learn, I need to become a 5. That in its self is difficult, but with so many people wanting me to succeed, plus my own determination to do this. I am tackling the most difficult part of my own being. Slowing down. And when I feel myself getting up in the numbers, my safe word, "5" It brings me back to where I need and want to be. I have seen a great improvement with Hawk, he likes it better, who wouldn't?
So... The first schooling show for the TVDCTA [Tennessee Valley Dressage Combined Training Assoc.][[and my first in....13 years]] is this next Saturday, with a clinic following on Sunday. Yep, in for a penny, in for a pound, decided to ride the clinic as well. Which in a way will be beneficial. Our judge will break the scores down as why they are marked that way and hopefully how to improve the rides. I remember from my very first dressage ride many years ago, "needs to utilize the aids to become a more effective rider" I totally understand that now. So, lets hear it for amazing weather, a cool breeze and well behaved horses and riders!
Saturday, April 10, 2010
Crazy times
Rick and I got back from Vanderbilt on Thursday, Good news is that I no longer have to be on the Plavix. Just a baby aspirin a day. It has been quite a crazy time the past year and a half. I did think to ask about being able to SCUBA [it has been something I have wanted to do.] But it seems that is not recommended because of the past history of stroke. Which is fine, because there are so many other things that I am into.
The Girls are growing fast, and Rick is putting the coop together, Should be ready by this following weekend. I am ready for them to be outside! PLUS have a friend who is expecting 50 more Barred Rocks, straight run, asked if he needed to get rid of a Roo to let me know. Plus more babies if they get to be too much.
Have been researching the top bar hive, I really like the look of it. Seems to be user friendly and that is a big Plus! Seems like the hive stays a bit healthier, but I'm sure that other types have their loyal following as well. I worked the traditional hives many years ago. (like 25) I am thrilled to be able to do this again.
The Girls are growing fast, and Rick is putting the coop together, Should be ready by this following weekend. I am ready for them to be outside! PLUS have a friend who is expecting 50 more Barred Rocks, straight run, asked if he needed to get rid of a Roo to let me know. Plus more babies if they get to be too much.
Have been researching the top bar hive, I really like the look of it. Seems to be user friendly and that is a big Plus! Seems like the hive stays a bit healthier, but I'm sure that other types have their loyal following as well. I worked the traditional hives many years ago. (like 25) I am thrilled to be able to do this again.
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
Introduction to the holidays
Getting ready to decorate the house for the coming holidays. I can't really say if I am excited to decorate or not, I guess it just depends on how easy this is going to be. Usually I set everything up and let the boys finish the tree and set the rooms up.
This year though they all have jobs. Our eldest hasn't been home for 5 years. At first it was difficult, now I have become accustomed to his absence. Our second son has also made the decision to serve and should be on his way next spring. Our third and final son is still attending school. Their jobs keep them busy, which is good. But times like these I miss the noise and confusion.
So this year it's on me. Tonight, I suppose, since I have the house to myself. I'll put the Christmas CD's on and listen to the old favorites. Enjoy your evening.
This year though they all have jobs. Our eldest hasn't been home for 5 years. At first it was difficult, now I have become accustomed to his absence. Our second son has also made the decision to serve and should be on his way next spring. Our third and final son is still attending school. Their jobs keep them busy, which is good. But times like these I miss the noise and confusion.
So this year it's on me. Tonight, I suppose, since I have the house to myself. I'll put the Christmas CD's on and listen to the old favorites. Enjoy your evening.
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